A Little Shout Out

To my favorite sister Amanda. She is just the bomb. She is so pretty and nice and smart and lovely and she smells good and cool and is articulate and funny and patient and loving and gorgeous and well cultured and cute and healthy and darling and brave and always on the ball and fun and caring and well dressed and motivated and beautiful and giving and awesome and my role model.
If you guys don't know her you are missing out!

Chapter 64- So....

I'm sitting here on my couch listening to the rain trickle down the big living room window watching Kindergarten Cop and burning up with boredom. Why do I have NO friends? Seriously, everyone else in the world is still in school therefore they are busy doing homework or other school related things. Here I am dying. I've reached the point where I've scrounged my house in search of food three times now. Pathetic? yes. 

A few thoughts-

Arnold, my dear Austrian body builder turned Governor, is NOT very good looking. Big muscles? oh yes. Chiseled features? very much. Attractive? nope.

It has got to be about a million degrees in here. 

Commercials are getting more and more pitiful. Sometimes I lose hope in humanity.

Chris Pine= sexy man. 

If Zac Efron and Chris Pine were in a movie together I would die. My heart honestly would just give out and  BAM- I would die. Dead. 

I still haven't seen Titanic.

I miss the 90s.

Being the person that makes jingles for companies would be SO freaking sweet. I would be terrible at it, but come on now, life would be AWESOME! (imagine that in a sing songy tone).

I want redheaded children.

I LOVE LITTLE KIDS! 

My gum has no flavor.

I want frozen yogurt but it's 11 so everywhere is closed.

Fatty fatty two by four can't get through the bathroom door!

WOAH! The kid from Skype is getting old- low voice and all!

Swack- sweaty back

DVR probably was the best invention ever in the whole period period amen.

10 points for Gryffindor.

I secretly miss old school police cars. 

Sean from Psych has gotten chubby. It makes me a little bit sad. He was quite the hottie twenty pounds ago.

Chapter 63- Clips of Conversation

"Just stare into his dreamy eyes and ask yourself, 'Could I do this for the rest of eternity?' and if the answer's yes- which I'd say yes- just look into that blue dreamy abyss... Oh boy... then kiss him right then and there!! And he'll say Marry me!"

"Forget the education; become a babysitter instead."

"Can we make nasty green smoothies this spring?"

"Just walk up and yell at him! Then I'll step in and say you have Tourettes and then he will bad and won't be able to say no to going out with you."

"Do you believe in polyandry?"

"What about the basketballs attached to his chest?"
                              "I feel like they would mold perfectly around my head when I'm hugging him..."

"Today is a lipstick kind of day."

Chapter 62- The Agenda

The plan for my week off-

1. Titanic. probably twice. probably by myself. with tissues.
2. sleeping in
3. D.I.
4. Target
5. unpacking
6. repacking
7. grocery shopping
8. work on my body. being single is making me a fatty fatty two by four
9. get fabric from the fabric store and then attempt to make myself a skirt or two. this probably won't happen
10. take naps
11. watch tv
12. see friends
13. go to a mission call opening party
14. try doing fancy things with my hair
15. buy a kite

Chapter 61- Yep, twice in an hour

Oh hey again.
I feel like running 17 miles.
My brain feels like oatmeal.
My ponytail is too tight.
I hate writing research papers.
This song makes me feel better!

Chapter 60- Definitely not wanting to do anything

Hi, my name is Camille and I have officially had a full, real life, adult relationship. Cue the applause. Ya see, I don't do relationships. I'm the queen of first dates and no double dipping. I'm okay with that. I get free food and lots of awkward stories, but all good things must come to an end right? I mean, it was really a miracle that I dated anyone no matter the length of time and what an awesome experience it was. I would highly recommend dating someone and then NOT getting your heartbroken. Apparently that's the only way I know how to do it and I'm not keen on the idea of changing that.
Anywho,
I was chatting with my brother about the whole experience with my ex-boyfriend (weird) and he said that whilst reading my blog he got the impression that I had been head over heels in love with this boy and had pretty much started planning our wedding. This is false and now I feel the need to explain myself.
Once upon a time, I, Camille Louise, am a huge drama queen. To be frank, I really was delusionally happy, but I was never in love. I don't fall in love. Even after dating this kid for almost two months I never gave my heart away. I never had some kind of deep emotional connection with him. I don't do that or, more accurately, I don't know how to do that. This guy treated me amazingly, as you well know, and I'm so blessed to have dated him. For a while there I had the world on a string. I was as happy as a lark (don't understand that phrase? No worries, click on the word and I have got you covered!). Soon the glitter faded and I realized that we were just really different people- emotionally, spiritually, morally, ethically.... any other -allys. I knew that things weren't going to progress any further, so I cut things off. We're still friends. We text, we talk, we are fine.
So, what have I learned? Oh boy, let me pull out the number list thing-

1. I need to be friends with a guy first
2. I need someone that will let me be silly
3. I'm not ready to settle down, I've got a lot to learn
4. If he doesn't love my laugh, then we have got to have a serious talk
5. There is a difference between being compatible and having chemistry
6. There is also a difference in getting along with someone and being capable of having a relationship
7. Never settle for someone I can live with, go for someone I can't live without
8. I need someone that will encourage me to be a better person
9. I want to be able to act like an idiot everyday
10. I'm kind of crazy
11. I still have a hard time building trust with people
12. Never ever ever waver in your values
13. I NEED spontaneity
14. I still hate shaving my legs
15. Please, no more movie nights!
16. For some reason I become extremely passive once I'm in a relationship. Suddenly, I just don't care about having an opinion about anything. That's not okay. I need to remain my spunky, sassy, sarcastic self. 
17. Life is crazy.
18. Relationships are interesting
19. Prayers get answered
20. I need to take things slow otherwise I feel a loss of control
21. Laughing makes any situation better

Chapter 59- Homework is too daunting so I'm blogging instead

1. post rules of the game so no one gets lost.

2. post a photo and 11 random things about yourself.

3. answer questions that were given you by tagger.

4. ask some questions for those you tag to answer

5. tag some people to do this all over again.

 

1. Ever since I won a free ice cream sundae from getting the "winning gumball" I have been obsessed with gumballs. I can fit five in my mouth at one time.
2. I go through a box of cereal every week
3. It takes me ten minutes to blow dry my hair... so most days I just don't do it. 
4. I've recently embraced a more natural look. This includes not wearing eyeliner and just plastering on mascara!
5. I cry four times while watching Titanic
6. My hair is almost "mermaid long"
7. I don't believe in deodorant, but sometimes I wear it so that people won't judge me

1. what was your favorite birthday party and why?

My mom threw me an "unbirthday party" in the middle of February my senior year of high school because my birthday is the last day of July and people are never around. I was SO surprised! It was so fun to have so many people show up to surprise me and I just felt super loved. 

2. rings or necklaces?

rings... but I don't have many

3. weirdest recent dream?
my sister was obese! As in, so so so fat and I was a complete wreck about it. I couldn't believe she was so hugenormous and then the grocery store was having some kind of weird contest and I kept on switching back and forth between being one person and then being myself. Creepy weird. 

4. first crush?
Leonardo Di Caprio. It was during Titanic (I'm obsessed) when I was like five years old that I had the realization that heck, guys are cute. Not only is Leo cute in Titanic but he sets my heart a flutter to this very day! Holla, if you are going to be at the Premiere of the release in 3D! I might cry. 

5. who do you go to when you're sad?
My computer. I write out every thought and feeling as fast as my fingers can type. Then, if I still feel crappy, I will call my Lisa. 

6. if you could do one thing right now, what would it be?
Hit the fetal position and sleep. Then I would go running.

7. current favorite song/artist?
Cameras by Matt and Kim or ANYTHING by the Killers

8. favorite midnight snack?
Oh, this is a tricky one! Usually I settle for some sliced deli meat thanks to Hillshire Farms or a piece of bread with  jam on it. Never toasted. 

9. guilty pleasure?
Brownies. Oh my, homemade brownies are a gift from the gods, but I'm really not as partial to the ones that you buy at the store! They edges aren't as crispy and I'm left feeling a bit disappointed. 

10. thing you do when you procrastinate?
Eat dry cereal straight from the box. It really doesn't matter what kind although I prefer shredded wheat. I just can't get over the cardboard flavor of those frosted little biscuits. I also will talk to people. I don't care who they are or what they're doing I will begin to talk and they usually will begin to listen. Usually. 

(anything on the internet doesn't count)

11. if you could say one thing to the world what would it be?

Be who you are and love it. There are too many people that are concerned about what people think about them, but all that really matters is that  you are happy with who you are. If you like yourself, others will unconsciously begin to like you as well. You are a child of God and that is all that matters.



Questions for you-
1. If you could have one signature dance move what would it be?
2. If you could eat one thing without getting fat or ugly what would it be?
3. What would you tell yourself 5 years ago?
4. What makes you cry?
5. Celebrity crush?
6. If you had anyone's hair who would it be and why?
7. Dream concert?
8. Favorite childhood tv show?
9. How do you want other people to view you?
10. What do you do when you are having a bad day to feel better?
11. What was your childhood dream?


Tag- Amanda, Amy, Beka, Amberly, and anyone else in the whole world that wants to! Go for it ladies!