Friends and family (and the few of you that I don't know that read my blog),
Bless you. You have hung in there, anxiously waiting and wondering what the crap is going on in my life. I've been allusive. I've given you little baby pieces of information, just tastes of what is going on in my life. I could probably say I've been busy, but honestly I just haven't known what to say. I could post every cheesy cliche quote from Pinterest, but that wouldn't even do it justice. I'm in love with a boy. You guys, I wish I could describe everything I'm feeling. I wish I could find words that could even begin to explain everything. Love is one of those things that washes over you filling every particle of your being. It overwhelms you with its power and leaves you helpless to its control. I never even believed in love. I didn't want to be in love, but luckily fate intervened.
If you remember correctly, a few months ago I posted this. I was excited, no, ELATED to be single. I wanted to experience the world. I had things I needed to figure out by myself. Apparently life had some other ideas for me. The second day of classes I met Matt. He was suave, he was charming and most importantly he was safe. I wasn't worried about getting serious with someone fresh off their mission! He was so obviously not wife hunting and we even joked about it the first time we met. For the first time since I had started really dating I was having fun. We flirted shamelessly. We acted like idiots. We fell completely head over heels for each other. There was never a moment where I felt scared, though, which was so different from my other experiences. He let me have time for myself. We never have been that couple that texts constantly and has to spend every moment together. My independence was left intact, something I hadn't experienced before. He just let me be who I am and never, not even for one second, did I feel restrained or tied down. I think that's what love is. It's not wanting to be together all the time, but it's being able to remain who you are when you're together.
I don't know what's going to happen. For today, I'm happy. We have fun. He let's me be absolutely one hundred percent insane and he loves it. He makes me laugh. We talk to much and get in trouble for being too loud in Devotional. I love him and I love who I am when I'm with him.
"I'm in love, I'm in love and I don't care who knows it!